Archives for April 2017

04/29/17
Day 46
Extreme Accountability Challenge
Starting weight 304 pounds
Destination weight 175 pounds.
Total weight loss to date 36.2 pounds.

Yesterday I was talking with my older brother Randy trying to explain what it was like starting this weight loss journey. Posting my weight on Facebook everyday probably seemed absurd to most people, but I was so desperate. I had tried for so many years to get a handle on my overeating, I just couldn’t tame that monster within me. I told him it was a lot like in the movie Young Frankenstein, when Gene Wilder, playing Dr. Frankenstein, locked himself in the room with the monster. It’s a funny scene and gets to the surface of what I was doing. Many of you reading this are still probably thinking, it’s just weighing everyday and sticking to a program and getting your butt in shape. No big deal. You would be wrong, for me it was facing the biggest giant in my life, my lack of self control regarding food and diet.
I’ve written about that day several times but it all keeps running through my head every day even after 46 days of posting my scales to Facebook.
I won’t rehash all of the details but it was a lonely feeling when I was about to post the first post. Hyo Kim had to give me a push. Sure I wanted others to join me but I didn’t know if anyone would, I am not trying to be some hero here I am just writing this for anyone that’s in a struggle. I watched a Will Smith video last night that says it best of all, it goes way beyond the surface of what posting my weight was for me, the greatest bliss in life lie on the other side of the greatest fear.
Resonate on that for a minute.
Bliss Is on the Other Side of Fear.
I guess that is why there are so many depressed and unhappy people in the world. So few face their fears. Wow that is a huge metaphor for just about any struggle I can think of.Here’s a link to the short video of Will Smith

https://www.facebook.com/goalcast/videos/1346632308747289/

I don’t know why it has to be that way, but it just is. At age 55 I still have so many things that I want to do and achieve, my weight was my biggest obstacle, because it meant probable early death. I need breath in these lungs to achieve and do what I dream of. Yes I still have a great deal of weight to lose but it’s no longer a goal to reach 175 pounds it’s merely a destination. My level of certainty is 100% that I will get there in the coming months. I’m on the other side of this fear, time to face some more!

04/28/17
Day 45
Extreme Accountability Challenge
Total weight loss to date 35 pounds

I’ve been thinking about how for so many years I allowed myself to buy into the belief that it was okay to just halfway get my weight off and get healthy. I liked the idea that when I was “trying” to get healthy and lose weight in years past, it was socially acceptable and politically correct to deviate from my program for a “special” occasion. I would say “well so and so’s birthday only happens once a year” or “whatever special day only happens once a year.”
Guess what? Pretty soon every day became “special.”

Who in the heck was I kidding. This was just stinking thinking! Would it be okay for a recovering alcoholic to have one drink on a special occasion? I didn’t think so.

I’m not saying there’s not grace for you or me or anyone else that fails. But really, am I done leveraging my future for a bowl of ice cream or am I all in?
Guys I’m not perfect, I could fail, but guess what, I’m not going to fail. I will stick to my program to the letter. I’m not saying this out of ego, I’m saying this out of urgency, if not now when?
On those special occasions I would say “tomorrow l will get serious about my obesity.”
Tomorrow showed up for me when the scales read 304 pounds on March 8, 2017. It’s urgent, it’s a must not a try, There is no more “I should” only “I have to” “therefore I will get this weight off and be healthy.”

People this is not a drill, it is life or death. Today and forever I chose life. I hope you will too.

04/27/17
Day 44
Extreme Accountability Challenge
Total weight loss to date 34.4 pounds

The scales stayed the same today, I’m just sticking to my plan without wavering one bit, some days the reading on the scales doesn’t move. When I started posting my weight loss journey on Facebook everyday I knew that keeping a good record of daily posts would be important to stay encouraged.
I looked back at a week ago and over 3 pounds lost. There’s movement in the scales that I would miss if I couldn’t look back.